“I think I’m still holding onto you because there’s a part of me that aches to be who I was with you. You saved me, you shaped me and made who I am. You helped me so much. Maybe that’s why I can’t let you go, even after so long. I just don’t want to lose the change you made- I don’t want to lose myself again.
-i feel like i miss you, but not enough to really say it and mean it | a.m
“The truth is that I’m afraid to dive into someone new. How can I not be? I’m still emptying my lungs from the last time I fell into someone’s waters and explored the depths of them. It’ll be years before I’m done wringing the wetness out of my hair, before I stop smelling the salt of their oceans on my skin. Learning someone new is frightening now. It’s not the adventure it was before. I’m no longer bitter for my heartbreak. My reluctance isn’t a decision I made with a sour mouth. I’m just exhausted by the idea of feeling for someone new. Of treading water with small talk and stories about our childhoods. When I think of him, I am afraid of sinking so deeply into someone again that I am lost to them. In that, I realize I am most afraid that I won’t sink at all. That I’ll always be treading water with anyone that isn’t him. That anyone after him will only know how to meet me at the surface.”— pardis alia.
“I’m too exhausted to explain my soul to someone again.”— T. // ten word story #38
“You are what you do, not what you say you’ll do.”— C.G. Jung
I feel better without you
But I miss you
Oh, I do
—Do you sometimes miss me too?
“Never apologize for burning too brightly or collapsing into yourself every night. That is how galaxies are made.”— Tyler Kent White
“Stop letting people who do so little for you control so much of your mind and emotions.”— Will Smith
